Last month I explained how my husband’s accidental switch-up on anti-depressants made him suicidal and I had to take time off work to make sure he didn’t kill or hurt himself. Honestly, there’s not much change this month either. He’s still adjusting to his proper medication and his psychologist appointments were too far apart to really speed the healing process up, so he’s fluctuating wildly even day by day. He can wake up feeling fine enough to not need supervision and then his mood will drop harshly within a few hours and he needs me home.
A sweet, dear Goodreads friend of mine called Loki passed away unexpectedly. I’m not coping with life very well at the moment so I haven’t been able to offer comfort to all of my friends and Loki’s family. I do think about her a lot. A few years ago another Goodreads friend passed, and I think of her often. The online friends you make whom you never meet can be just as close as family, and I miss these two young women tremendously. They’ve shown me how delicate life is, and I’m determined to keep my husband alive.
Also, my poor darling grandfather, who took a fall last month and broke his femur, humerus and several ribs, passed away. I’m so sad. I can’t even. I just cry on and off. This past few months have just been so shitty.
I’ve been trying to work more from home, but I work in IT and I only have one screen at home, and the team really needs me back at work for a project using my usual dual monitors setup, so I’ve been stressing about work and leave. On the negative side, I think I’m struggling with depression myself. I don’t really want to read despite having a strict ARC schedule. I just want to spend all day in bed watching Power Rangers on Netflix.
Good news is that although Husband and I have been navel-gazing while we deal with his illness, some friends we haven’t seen in ages have reached out to us, which I’m really grateful for. I don’t normally complain or even admit to doing it tough in life, mostly because I’ve lived in poverty in a foreign country, but in these circumstances I don’t mind admitting that it’s really rough and we’re both having a really hard time of it.
March Wrap Up
So I didn’t get to read as much as I would have liked this month, and the books I read were all kind of average.
- [6 Apr] Cruel Beauty by Rosamund Hodge ★★★
- [19 Apr] Crimson Bound by Rosamund Hodge ★★
- [27 Apr] The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest by Melanie Dickerson ★★★
- [29 Apr] Darkness, Be My Friend by John Marsden ★★★
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- [8 Apr] Waiting on All the Rage by Courtney Summers (118)
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- [12 Apr] When A Book Changes Your Opinion (26)
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- [16 Apr] 2 Essential Blog Management Tools
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- [22 Apr] Waiting on Nobody’s Goddess by Amy McNulty (119)
- [23 Apr] UN World Book Day
- [26 Apr] An Unexpected Plot Twist (27)
- [28 Apr] Top Ten Books Which Feature Female Characters Who Kill People (94)
- [30 Apr] April Wrap Up
Films/TV I Watched
No wonder I haven’t been reading much. I think I’m depressed.
- The Fast and the Furious 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 & 7. Thank you, Husband!
- Had a massive Disney-a-thon, including: Mulan, The Little Mermaid (twice), The Lion King, Frozen and Tangled.
- The Avengers: Age of Ultron, which was well worth the wait.
- Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2
- Ghostbusters 1 & 2
- Binge watched Daredevil on Netflix – it was AMAZING.
- Binge re-watched Ja’mie Private School Girl because it’s hilarious, bitches.
- Game of Thrones – excellent, as usual.
- Husband watched Iron Chef America while I worked from home so I’ve seen quite a few episodes of that, too.
- Am also going through the complete Power Rangers series on Netflix – there’s about 20 different series. It’s going to take me a while.
- The Mighty Morphin Power Rangers film, even though it’s not canon.
- Some random documentaries about predator animals on Netflix. This was the day my grandfather died. I made a nest on the couch and watched nature do its thing.
- BBC’s Sherlock
- WWE’s Extreme Rules
Just when I thought I’d missed out, Bloomsbury sent me A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J Maas. Thank you, Bloomsbury, you really made a sad girl’s day!